This is a true story of what it looks like in 2019 when you find out your husband is getting deployed and all important news comes via text.
Not great. (Though I do appreciate how on brand I continue to be; always looking to get those dates in my planner.)
We found this out October 9 (the day after my book launch—buy my book! it’s good!) and I have rotated through allllllllllll the emotions at least 35 times since then.
Phase 1: It’s fine. I am good at this (I am).
Phase 2: I don’t want to do this (I don’t).
Phase 3: What a nightmare. I can’t do this (I will).
Phase 4: PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER, it could be worse (obviously, it could).
And on and on it will go in a loop until Paul leaves in February. (And then the loop will be the exact same until he comes home only I will also feel a constant, low-level unease too.)
If you have been following along on Instagram you might be surprised. The last I shared there was that we were either moving internationally or staying put. That was real. Those were what we knew to be the options. But instead, joke’s on us! Paul is moving internationally. The girls and I are staying put.
Don’t worry, guys. Because I am the queen of plans, I, of course, have a go-to solution when I am frustrated with a life situation:
I sob uncontrollably.
AND THEN. AFTER ALL THE TEARS, I assemble the facts:
“This is rough. But this is doable. We are not moving! I can do what I want with my business instead of what I have to do with my business. We can settle further into this home. This was not what we were expecting but it’s far from a crisis. Everyone is alive and healthy. I am not in control of everything. But I am definitely in control of some things.”
And that’s it.
That’s my personal news. That's what's next for our family. How are you?!
Here is some fine print for those who have not followed along over the years. Paul is a doctor in the US Navy. He has deployed twice before; once when we were newly married and once when I was pregnant with my first daughter. This will be the first time we are apart with kids. I will not be sharing on the internet specific details about locations or dates. (Please don't ask.)
