My name is Anum Tayyab, and I’m inviting you to take this path with me. I’d like to tell you a bit about how I got here, and what value I’m hoping to contribute through this newsletter.
Growing up in a Muslim family, my life has always been centered around morale, faith, and spirit.
As a child, when deciphering right from wrong, I instantly recalled my faith. I knew not to steal candy from a grocery store, and to say Assalamualaikum when greeting another Muslim.
But as I began to grow older, I was faced with more trials–more coming of age experiences. When I entered high school, societal norms and
western-teenage culture made it harder to embrace Islam, and I started to question if what I was taught was “wrong” was actually that—wrong.
The more I began to question, the further I drifted away from myself, and Islam. I was motionless in prayer, unaware that moving only your limbs does not compensate for niyyah (intention), and the placement of your heart.
Very frankly, it felt as if I was running away.
Straying further from my path despite knowing the truth.
I knew I had to make God a priority,
I was just deathly afraid of change.
And as I ran further and further away,
I became frantic.
Unable to rationalize, crumbling at the face of any trial.