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I can, with one eye squinted, take it all as a blessing. - Flannery O'Connor

 

December 29, 2020

 
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I don't usually send two newsletters in a month, but at the end of a year like this, when everything has been just so very much, I decided you might permit me this little one to tuck in amongst the less lovely bits we're juggling. Here's the thing - I think we all know how hard this year was, so I don't want waste more space on that - our heads are holding enough of that, so I think it's fair to give our hearts a break. 

 

What I really want to say is that in the midst of the mess, I found, and was given, some of the most dear gifts, of love, and grace, and time. I learned the magic of taking time off in the week, even when there was still so much left to do, of resting and rejoining the world with more patience and purpose. The screens that exhausted all of us also gave me the courage to join groups I'd been too timid to try for years (yes, years), and the practices and relationships that formed from those have been incredible. I asked for what I needed more, and (re)learned that catastrophizing life doesn't lessen its worries, but saps its strength. I took more walks, got to know more members of my community, made more phone calls, drew more, apologized more, and even through gritted teeth at times, forgave myself a little more.

 

If this year will teach us anything, it might just be the reminder that we don't have to weigh out our grief and our joy to see what's more worthy of holding - we can carry both. We can make a list of what helped our hearts to keep beating, and still lament all that's been lost. I have so much love for the Brandi from 2018 who was deep in the trenches of mourning and making a mess of things because it felt too hard to keep saying it was hard, but I also have even more love for the me now, who knows we don't have to choose, that we can be both gutted and grateful.  We can share photos of that favorite spot in our home, our cup of tea, the funny shaped leaf, or the dog's bent ear, not because we don't know and feel that life is heavy and hard, but because of course it is - of course it is - and this is the way we get through, the tiny dots of joy that keep connecting us, keep reminding us to work on the bigger picture, even if we cannot begin to imagine what path is next. 

 

We don't know what's ahead, I don't have a more lovely way to say that, so while we dream, and plan, and wish, I know many of us are still wondering what's going to surprise us next, but I hope the one thing that doesn't shock us is our ability to wrestle joy from the rubble. We have found light in the tunnel because we are that light, the beacon, be it ever so bright or dim at times, guiding each other home. 

 
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The printables for this newsletter came from my own need to make a simple list to acknowledge what I am grateful for in this impossible year. I am hoping they invite a bit of joy in amongst the gratitude and frustration of attempting to reflect on a year such as this one. 

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First, and always, thank you for supporting this new endeavor. Your response was overwhelming, and I'm so, so thankful. I doubled the spots at first, then opened more, and last week I quietly opened up the last additional spots for the Extravagant Hope starting in January to try to make sure anyone who wanted one could grab one. I've got a few left, so I wanted to give you that little heads-up in case you've been on the fence. I will leave the spots open until they sell out, or through end of the day on December, 31st, whichever comes first. If this month doesn't work for you, but you think you'd like one in the future, please don't fret - I will open up new spots in the middle of every month for the next month's mailing, and if you've already ordered a three or six month subscription, you're all set for a bit!

 

And, because good business ladies, which I am laughably not, but really should at least try, put links to their livelihood in their newsletters, here's where you can grab some Extravagant Hope of your own.

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“In the space between chaos and shape there was another chance.” 

- Jeanette Winterson

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What I wish for you this week: 

I hope this week gives you enough space to offer yourself, and others grace. I hope that you'll remember that even the worst, and darkest years have cracks of light, and that we are the ones that make, find, and share them. I hope you know you are loved, no matter how productive you are, how organized, or “ready” for the new year. I hope you know that all your trying is really something to behold, worth doing even when nothing goes as planned. I hope you know that we're out here, with you, walking these weird roads together, apart.

 
 

Wishing you nothing less than extravagant hope

 
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