“I hope to regain faith in Allah. I hope to seek His help actively, and remove what may be preventing me from making Him, my single confidante.”
The words I wrote in my journal on January 1st, 2020, were brought to life only when I acknowledged this fact:
Change lies within us, but we must be willing to sacrifice our comfort if we wish to see a transformation unveil itself.
We will walk aimlessly through life,
utterly confused and absolutely terrified—
unless we recognize where the light is.
Above us, Allah.
Around us, Rasulullah's ﷺ Ummah.
Inside us, Taqwa.
Amidst all darkness
channel your Noor,
and watch it illuminate your path towards success.
And in the moments I felt helpless,
close to giving up on my pursuit—
I raised my hands in dua and always pleaded,
“O, Allah! Please move me onward and upward into your safe, comforting arms —instead of backward into the malicious, preying hands of my desires.”