Hand Meditation

 

Have you taken a moment to look at your hands lately?

Observed the wrinkles at the bend of the fingers

The bulging veins across the top

The life lines a little more crooked than before

The nails a little too long for comfort or too short from gnawing

 

Looking at my hands has always been a centering practice for me. When I was a little girl, I used to hold my hands outstretched lying in bed and say to myself, whose hands are these? Isn’t it interesting that they’d be brown? They’re quite small and my thumb is less than two inches long. 

 

If you look at your hands in a certain way, perhaps tilt your head to the side a bit and are very still and present, you see your hands as a way of looking out from perhaps like the tentacle of an octopus. An acknowledgement that something else is looking. I still do this practice of looking at my hands. 

 

What does looking at your hands do for you? Is there another part of the body that brings forth the same kind of feeling?

 

Breathe…

 

Greetings!

 

Well it’s been a minute since I last wrote but who’s keeping up and counting. I don’t know about you but 2021 has been as much mad hatter as 2020. I’m still here and thankful but I have been in a kind of sustained limbo far longer than I feel comfortable and yet it just is and I will know what I need to know when I need to know it. The ancestors and spirit guides seem to already know but are as usual withholding intel until the last second…!

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A personal milestone event took place for me at the end of March when I decided to take a visit to the Rippavilla (formerly the Cheairs) Plantation located in Spring Hill, TN. That’s right, I traveled to the place where my father’s people had worked the land. It’ll take too much time here to explain why it had to be in March that I went but the day I spent there is still literally sitting inside me and will be doing a lot with the experience over time. This image is the exterior of the only standing slave cabin on the land. It’s going through a renovation.

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What struck me was the interior of the cabin which appears to show the peeling remnants of painted white flowers on what would have been the front door. I didn’t expect to see this and was completely blown away by this simple beauty pushing through. Whose hands put these flowers there? Was it a father, mother, child or the whole family insisting on beauty be inside this home? I see brown hands running fingers across the white flowers. I hear a child’s laughter. The front door was not slammed because the flowers lived here and weren’t having it.

Upcoming…


I’m currently in production on Voices at the Gate, an experimental documentary video juxtaposing the bucolic landscapes inhabited by women’s prisons with archival and contemporary audio recordings of poems, essays and interviews by current and formerly incarcerated women of color living with HIV and AIDS. Voices at the Gate is a commissioned work by Visual AIDS for Day With(out) Art 2021. Check out the link below for more info and to see the other filmmakers a part of this year’s program. What an honor to be among such a talented group of people!! https://visualaids.org/blog/announcing-dwa-2021

 

Recent Past…


In April, I had an opportunity to present some of my more out there ideas as part of the Sensuous Discoveries Saturday School Panel on Exploring the Archival Potential of Blackness and Queerness beautifully curated and organized by Ajamu X and Christopher Kirubi.

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Black Holes & Poetic Possibilities of the Archive, uses poetry, guided meditation, my love of space and curiosity about black holes to foreground my more theoretical philosophies around quantum physics, time travel, dark matter, and black holes as the origin of Black subjectivity and ways archival practice can bring us in contact with these potentialities. I was very nervous and undoubtedly the most vulnerable presentation I’ve ever done. It is interactive when using the spacebar or right arrow key to activate the slide. If you have further interest in this presentation, feel free to reach out to me directly. Feel free to check it out here.

 

Metanoia Online launched at the end of February and is an interactive exploration of the exhibition Metanoia: Transformation Through AIDS Archives and Activism. Metanoia was first presented as a physical exhibition at the LGBT Community Center in New York City in March 2019 and the One Gallery in Los Angeles in January 2020 but closed due to the COVID-19 pandemic. It is exciting to see this online birth beautifully designed by Fati Zulaikha and brilliantly organized by Umi Hsu, Director of Content Strategy at the One Archives Foundation. Metanoia Online can be viewed at the link https://metanoia.onearchives.org/

 

Additionally, The One Archives Foundation will be presenting a virtual reading of Larry Kramer’s, The Normal Heart, featuring Sterling K. Brown and directed by the acclaimed and Emmy Award Winning, Paris Barclay on Saturday May 8th at 5pm PST. More info at the link!

 

What I’m reading…

  • In the Wake: On Blackness and Being by Christina Sharpe
  • Undrowned: Black Feminist Lessons from Marine Mammals by Alexis Pauline Gumbs
  • The Healing Wisdom of Africa: Finding Life Purpose Through Nature, Ritual and Community by Malidoma Patrice Some

What I’m listening to…

Favorite gif…

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