I won't lie - this was a huge slap in the face. As someone who's always worried about the way I look, I was horrified to realise that I'd been unwillingly reinforcing the very thing I was trying to free myself from.
Of course I want people to love the photos I take for them.
I can use lighting and composition to create eye-catching images.
I can ask people to tilt their head towards the light, or move their arm a little to make a photo more interesting.
I can run my images through Lightroom to alter colours, correct contrasts and give everything an overall look and feel that is mine, and likely one of the reasons they booked me in the first place.
But virtually saying “Don't worry, I know you've probably got lots of body issues so I'll make sure I work around them to make you look your best”… Nope. Not okay.
By default, I don't retouch images, apart from the occasional pimple, rogue strand of hair, or crease on a shirt. I don't smooth skin out and I don't make people look thinner, because it's not my place to say “I think this is what you should look like.”
But conversely, if someone asked me to do any of these things… it wouldn't be my place to say “no I won't, because I think you look amazing and you should believe it too”. It's not my place to downplay and invalidate the way they feel about themselves for the sake of promoting body positivity.
We all struggle with the way we look at some point. We all wish we were thinner, or bigger, or taller, or smaller… And as we go into 2021, I want to be more mindful of what I do and say to put my clients at ease, and how I can help them feel confident in front of my camera without accidentally feeding into the diet culture and reinforcing harmful patterns.