My measurement of what is āenoughā has undoubtedly changed over the past two years and frankly, continues to evolve even as I write this. But Iāve been thinking about it a lot this week, both when it comes to the business and personally.
As I work through the next steps for this business, Iām realizing that itās not āenoughā in every aspect it should be. Amazing clients? Check. Fulfilling design work? Check. Check. Check. Enough rest? Errrā¦.perhaps not. Expenses covered? Yeah...not so much.
And I know this is something that many people are dealing with as this pandemic moves into its halfway point. Getting a livable wage while not also killing ourselves is no longer a nice-to-have but a must-have. But also, like, why is milk $6 a damn half-gallon? Why does clean air feel unattainable for less than $1000 / year? I live in constant fear of getting dropped by our health insurance, AGAIN. And why taxes, like, in general? I mean, I know the answer to most of this is capitalism coupled with privilege and supremacy; yes, I get it. Also, seeing bazillionaires launch themselves into space for literally no reason over the last two weeks, knowing that they could help but WONāT, has been absolutely infuriating and is just fueling my fire for more significant change.
Frankly, though, itās been pretty overwhelming to think about the big things in the world when everything still seems so tenuous in our own lives in general. That, coupled with a whole lot of summer FOMO, has left me feeling more than a little brittle these past few days. Big shout out to my husband Brian for dealing with my, letās say, less than generous relationship efforts this week. Luh you boo...
So, hey, if youāre dealing with these big, scary, life-changing thoughts, too - Hi! Hello! Welcome! You are absolutely not alone! But, like, what have you been doing to cope with it all?
To get by this week, Iāve been using good music, cheese plates with these Fig & Rosemary Crisps, wild baseball games, andā¦.
