hey y'all!
i'm back and so grateful to all of you who have extended grace during this time.
it’s interesting how much i have felt both exactly where i need to be and lost. i’m in a different climate, living and loving dynamics, and dwelling. my relationships to social and public relations have dissolved while my personal and professional have enriched.
in this all, i’ve noticed a few things: it's never one thing i'm experiencing and often contrasting things; missing a person is also missing a sensation, a physicality, a way of being; words fail me more often while images, places, people come to center to fill in those gaps. while it a jumbled mix, still i feel just right.
all of these noticings are data* about me in this moment. instead of making sense of it all, i have just been witnessing myself with myself (with-nessing). i’m witnessing how i navigate all this new-ness, how i am often holding multiple feelings, how it’s both freeing and challenging. sometimes i completely understand, other times i don't. this is change.
all of that is knowledge*. how i navigate life acknowledging it is my wisdom*. and it feels like the only thing i need to be doing right now for myself is noticing and acknowledging without letting making sense of it get in the way. its an enchanting and friction-full place, but perfect.
i’m wondering if this resonate with you? what would practicing noticing and acknowledging open for you? what would with-nessing yourself unfold? i welcome you to reply & share.
solo-practice: find a piece of music that aligns to your experience right now. as you listen to it, allow your imagination to wander and create a music video for it with you at the center. what do you notice as you with-ness? what can you acknowledge without making sense of from that?
*body data/ knowledge/ wisdom is language i learned from InterPlay Body Wisdom. i credit them for this frame & praise the indigenous lineages that gave them/ us awareness of it.
