Hi there First name / friend,
Please read to the end to try something BRAND NEW that I'm super pumped to beta test with you! 🍓🌳🌻
After I delayed the start to From Work to Worth in the beginning of July, I was so much more relaxed. I looked forward to slowing down this month, treat myself to mid-week massages (I got two last week!), and catch up on things I've been putting off.
I did all of that and, while it was so rejuvenating, half the time I've been waking up feeling apathetic and unmotivated. This brought on some sadness, as if the slowness allowed me to birth the sadness.
After some journaling, a supportive chat with my therapist, and a lot of trying to “figure it out”, I'm realizing that the combination of the Roe v. Wade decision, slowing down and allowing feelings to come up, and working for home for so long during this pandemic resulted in some detachment for me.
I don't see feelings as “bad”, but sometimes they're really fuckin' difficult! I did my best to be with them instead of push them away.
Some ways I have felt during this time are:
- blah
- detached
- unmotivated
- curious
- joyous
- sad
- relaxed
- connected
- disconnected
- confused
- anxious
- in awe
- unproductive
- tired
- annoyed
- still
- present
- detached…again
While I don't want to over-diagnose, I think a lot has collided for me:
- Being go-go-go since quitting my 9-5 a year ago and then being so slow-slow-slow that all these feelings had space to come up
- Continued late stage capitalism shenanigans + Roe v. Wade being a patriarchal nail in the coffin
- Knowing that the work I do makes a difference while also seeing the world continuing to crumble around me and wondering “but am I really making a difference? what does anything mean anyway????"
Does this mean I am detached from From Work to Worth?
Not at all! This is one of those times where I feel LIT UP and WTF BLAH at the same time. In case you were wondering, this is allowed. You aren't a hypocrite if you have felt this way First name / my dear, you're a human in a world that often doesn't regard humanity.
I can't say I felt unworthy during this time, but I wondered what is “enough” in this world within me and beyond me. I might intellectually know I'm enough, but how is that translating?? Is my enoughness enough? 😅
As I mentioned in a
prior email, my capacity has reduced while I grapple with what enough and worthy is. While I know my worth hasn't changed because my capacity has changed, the relationship between my capacity and the collective has me feeling a lot of ways.
What has helped me during this time? Connecting with other humans, allowing myself to rest, being honest about my lack of motivation, and connecting to the Earth.
This morning I journaled about what I can do to feel like I have a direction while not burning myself out. I wrote:
“(1) share what's happening with me (2) move my body in nature, and (3) try new things.”
So here I am (1) sharing this with you. I'm about to embark on 3 weeks of self-isolation before an international trip, so I need (2) connection with the Earth more than ever. So….I came up with an invitation that I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT! (3) This new idea is a way for us to connect while being with the Earth!!! 👇🏾👇🏾👇🏾
I invite 10 of you to be with your favorite form of nature while we respond to each other for 40 minutes about FEELING PRESENCE THROUGH DELIGHT 🍓
I want to play with a new way to get my clients to feel presence through delight by connecting with the Earth and each other. If you want to be one of my special beta-testers, let me know! There are only 10 spots available until August 5.
I call this: DELIGHT WITH NISHA IN NATURE 🍓🌳🌻
I can't tell you how much this new idea shifts the apathy I've been feeling and makes me feel more connected to you, the Earth, and to myself. WIN WIN BABY!
All I ask is that you donate at least $5 to my BIPOC Healing Fund to support fully funding the 2023 Boundaries for BIPOC cohort. Just $5(!!!) to try this out 😍
HOW DOES THIS WORK?
(1) Reply to this email with “I wanna delight with you!"
(2) We will coordinate your donation and a time to chat.
(3) At your scheduled time, you'll bring yourself to your chosen Earthy space, creature, and/or object.
(4) Nisha will give you a call and invite you into some delightful presence through conversation, sensory experiences, and somatics.
(5) We will DELIGHT 🍓
That's it!
If you want to try this out with me, hit reply and let's connect in all the ways!
