Hello friends! I thought it could be good to do a little “State of NTK.” I am sharing it in the newsletter because I view this audience as “my people.” There have been so many amazing changes in this space in the last 12 months and writing it down here helps me to slow down and take stock of where we are and where we’re headed. Sitting down to plan is something that is not easy for me amidst the hustle and bustle of life.
The last year with NTK was incredible. It is no longer a hobby; it is also my job. My job! What in the world?! It’s the best job I could ask for, and it is providing in real ways for my family. Seeing as I will (hopefully!) be here a while, I want it to matter. I started this year asking some bigger questions: Where do I want to be in five years? Ten? How does this job fit with the time I want with my family? What part do my children play? What will they think when they look back on this in ten years? What will I think?
My answers around those questions seemed to coalesce around two things: people and writing.
I love stringing letters into sentences that bring life to a scene or words to a feeling. Every time I post words on instagram, the hour following is such a joy. I connect with you all in the comments and hear how something I wrote resonated with you.
I always figured I would write some sort of cookbook. When your instagram handle has “kitchen” in the name it feels like a no-brainer. And then I had a terrible realization: I actually don’t love creating recipes. At least not in this season of life. I enjoy riffing recipes in the moment and using what I have on hand. Asking “can we go one more day?” as I throw random things together for dinner. I love doubling or tripling a recipe to freeze some or figuring out what to serve with it to take it to a family to enjoy. I love encouraging you to do the same. But when it comes to actual recipe creation, testing, and publishing, I just can’t get excited.
I have been in talks with a book agent (her name is Lisa) for the last six months. We got lunch in September and have been fleshing out a book ever since. We started with the book idea I described above: a cookbook meets freezer guide of sorts, with all sorts of NTK tips and tricks sprinkled in. Lisa read it and we agreed it could be great, and honestly, fairly easy for me since I already had a lot of the material.
Then, in December, Lisa asked if we could have a zoom call. She said that while she liked the proposal and knew she could pitch it, she had this gut feeling that it wasn’t THE book. She challenged me to take a month and consider writing a book that hones in on my writing. It was all very flattering and at the same time very hard to hear. Mostly because I knew writing a “book book” as I call it would take a heck of a lot more time and effort.
But I also knew that she was absolutely right. Writing is what makes me come alive on NTK. It’s where I process and put words to joys and struggles. It is where I feel most like myself. And –I think– it’s what many of you enjoy most.
I am in the process of figuring out exactly what this book would look like. I have chapters started and ideas written on a giant whiteboard. The hardest part has been figuring out a throughline that ties it all together, but I am happy to say that I do feel myself narrowing in on what that is.
So that’s the big plan for 2023. Me, sitting at my computer, typing out words and praying a book forms.