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Hello friends, I've been feeling like the written word is no longer adequate to express the depth of what I am feeling and experiencing on so many levels, all at once. (By the way, have you seen the movie, Everything Everywhere All At Once? This is the closest I have seen any form of media get to showing what it is like to live in multiple realities simultaneously. Marvel movies have come close, but this is next level. I am thrilled that understanding of the Multiverse is going mainstream. Now I don't have to describe it. I can just point to a movie and say, “watch this.”) After so many years spent intensely focused on writing my memoir, and having that take up such a huge chunk of psychic space within me, I am now feeling pretty burnt out on writing. So instead of journaling, I've started experimenting with making voice recordings. I shared some with friends and their feedback gave me the idea to start a podcast. That was over a year ago, and the idea has been percolating in my brain ever since. Capricorn Venus Cycle: Gathering the Medicine For the last 19 months, as the Capricorn Venus cycle unfolded, I was in such a slow, deep process of experiencing what it means to connect to the wisdom of the earth in my body that it was difficult to surface into the realm of expression. I was feeling called to quietly gather my medicine and heal myself, out of the public eye. I made my social media accounts private and stopped pressuring myself to engage online. It just got so damn stressful to think about what to post, how much, how often, finding the right hashtags, and all that. I realized that I wasn't living my life because I was constantly thinking about how to perfect my “brand” and promote it. My first inclination when receiving communication from Spirit was not to receive it for myself, but to package it into “content” and share it. My wisdom told me that there would come a time to be seen, but this was not that time. |
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Capricorn Venus Cycle collage |
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Saturn in Pisces: Refining the Foundation With Saturn in Pisces, transiting my 4th house of Home and Roots, my responsibility towards my family of origin has increased, as both my parents have been experiencing upheaval in their lives and needing support. This has required me to strengthen my inner foundations. Here are some excerpts from a longer blog post I wrote about this transit: “…it calls for a gentle softening of long-held patterns and rigid structures, specifically related to my family of origin, lineage, and my home environment. It shows me that “home” is not bound to a single structure. As this transit progresses, I see myself settling into a profound feeling of being at home with myself, wherever I am. Home is an inner sanctum that is always supporting me and never erodes. I am learning to hear the calls from home, beckoning me to return to my source to replenish myself. To rehydrate my thirsty body, to bust through the dams that have stagnated my creative flow. To soften the restrictions in my body, mind, and psyche to allow Spirit to pour itself into me, like crystal clear water into a glass of mud. Let the pain that has been frozen in time start to thaw and flow. Feel my feelings rise to the surface and spill out until I am clean of the residue of past trauma.
I am practicing how to keep myself safe from toxic patterns embedded in my lineage and navigate family dynamics in a way that is healthy for me. I am prioritizing my healing so I can be a healing presence in my family, and beyond. Knowing what I can give without depleting myself and expressing these boundaries with kind assertiveness. Only saying yes when I want to say yes keeps me from repeating patterns of over-giving and resentment and makes me more available for genuine heart connections.”
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Leo Venus Cycle: Sacred Storytelling On August 19th, the Leo Venus cycle began. My wisdom tells me that over these next 19 months I will be encouraged to release my resistance to being seen, so my full authentic self can shine in the world. This starts with being seen in my creative process. So as Venus rises as a morning star, I am rising and stepping into this new level of self expression. I'm still not ready to launch a full podcast, but I'm ready to take the first baby steps in that direction by sharing some of my voice recordings and more “behind-the-scenes” pictures and stories of my creative process. These will be posted on my Buy Me a Coffee page. Most of the content I post there will be free and will not require a membership. Some of the more vulnerable content (such as raw voice recordings in which I'm processing deep emotional shit) will be available to members only, because I need the safety of knowing who is holding that space with me. Edited transcripts of voice recordings will be accessible to all. I've titled this series Field Notes from the Wild Within. It will be less polished than my newsletters, more raw and wild. Thought fragments captured in spoken and written form. Bullet points without a clear narrative arc. Focusing on the essence, rather than the context, will allow me to share my medicine stories as they happen, while still protecting the privacy of myself and others. I’m embracing the messiness of this process and trusting the form in the chaos. I will let the fragments speak for themselves and not force them to make sense before they’re ready. This feels like a huge departure from my previous blogging style, and I’m excited to see how this evolves over time. The beauty of this format is simplicity and spaciousness, releasing me from the stress of pumping out exceptional content on a deadline. Writing becomes a burden when I’m just not feeling it, and I love this work too much to start hating it. So, I'll aim to post regularly*, but I make no guarantees. (* to align with my cyclical nature, they will be posted during the waning moon phase, sometime between Disseminating & Last Quarter. My other series, “Mad Sage Speaks” will be posted near the Dark Moon) Subjects I'll be talking about include: - Living in season
- Unraveling societal conditioning
- Dismantling internalized capitalist patriarchy and the cultural mindset of endless production
- My relationship with Time and my experiences moving in and out of linear time.
- Neurodivergence (specifically AuDHD)
- Astrology & Human Design
- Grounded spirituality
- Trauma recovery
- Stories of how I am learning to live in this world as my true self, Spirit in matter, a multiverse walking around in human form.
Expect to see a good mix of serious shadow work and tongue-in-cheek comic relief. The first audio recording is available to the public. It is about the tension in my body being what holds me together and my thoughts on what would happen if I begin to release that tension. It is called “Dissolve” |
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Mad Sage Speaks 00004: The River I'm on the lookout for something real in a sea of masks, hoping to find the rare authentic connections that make me feel so at home that I forget to wear mine. I wade into this river of all that is, trying to ignore the talking points, the endless arguments, what's right, what's wrong. What I refuse to be sticks to me. One here and there, what do I care? But before I know it, those sticks turn to stones and now the river ceases to flow. You will never know the ONE TRUE ANSWER, because there isn't one. There are many. How do I know which answer is mine? Listen to the part of yourself that has never tasted a strawberry through human lips, and yet loves that the potential exists. Below what is conscious lies a river of experiences that you can weave into your existence, a lifetime of wisdom lived by someone, somewhere, sometime. All you have to do is choose and then drink. Let each potential be like flowers in the garden that you tend calling out, inviting you, to inhale their scent, from time to time. Bring all of yourself into each moment. And then move on. 🔮B |
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Shamanic Astrology Readings My schedule for Shamanic Astrology readings is open for the Fall season, from now until the end of October. If you've been thinking about getting a reading, now is your chance. For those who have had readings with me before, you can book an update reading or sign up for a Seasonal Package. My business has been steadily growing in a magical, organic way through your referrals of family and friends. I thank each of you with all my heart. 💖 |
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My self-published memoir, Unraveling: a True Story of Madness & Magic is now available on Amazon.com in both print and e-book formats. |
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Thank you for your continued support of my soul's work. I know that many things are competing for your time and attention. I appreciate that you made space in your day to receive what I have to offer. My door is open in return.
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