It feels hard to put my hands to this keyboard and type this email but yet I’m training my brain to have a better relationship with consistency and this is one of the few things that gets to fall on that list.
What is it about consistency that’s so hard for me you ask? I think it’s boredom. Or maybe predictability. Or better yet I think it’s both of those things with a splash of…
‘who’s even paying attention to what I’m doing and who made the rules of this game?’
For a while I felt like consistency was just a sneaky way to talk about productivity. I was like oh, I see what they’re doing here, they’re disguising 🥸 productivity as consistency and making it trendy and I’m not in for that!
My relationship with productivity is…dicey. Because for a very long time productivity was my only measure of the age old question, ‘am I worthy enough?’
So when someone started marketing productivity as consistency I was like oh fuck no.
But now as I sit here, and really sit with what it means to be consistent, and my triggers around the word ‘productivity,’ I realize both terms aren’t so bad.
Consistency is a great way for me to remind myself I can do hard things.
I can do something day after day and train my brain that even in the monotony, and boredom of life, I am capable of doing this one thing over and over again.
It's less important for the thing itself and more important for how it trains us to be.
I think of it as training to being a consistently good friend. Or consistently showing up for the people I love, (like taking these beautiful photos in the cold and windy spring weather in Colorado after probably our most difficult moments as a couple the night before, but look who showed up to the event!) And better yet, consistently showing up and not abandoning myself.
My most important life lesson over and over again! 😃