It feels hard to put my hands to this keyboard and type this email but yet I’m training my brain to have a better relationship with consistency and this is one of the few things that gets to fall on that list.
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What is it about consistency that’s so hard for me you ask? I think it’s boredom. Or maybe predictability. Or better yet I think it’s both of those things with a splash of…
‘who’s even paying attention to what I’m doing and who made the rules of this game?’
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For a while I felt like consistency was just a sneaky way to talk about productivity. I was like oh, I see what they’re doing here, they’re disguising 🥸 productivity as consistency and making it trendy and I’m not in for that!Â
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My relationship with productivity is…dicey. Because for a very long time productivity was my only measure of the age old question, ‘am I worthy enough?’
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So when someone started marketing productivity as consistency I was like oh fuck no.
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But now as I sit here, and really sit with what it means to be consistent, and my triggers around the word ‘productivity,’ I realize both terms aren’t so bad.
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Consistency is a great way for me to remind myself I can do hard things.Â
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I can do something day after day and train my brain that even in the monotony, and boredom of life, I am capable of doing this one thing over and over again.
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It's less important for the thing itself and more important for how it trains us to be.
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I think of it as training to being a consistently good friend. Or consistently showing up for the people I love, (like taking these beautiful photos in the cold and windy spring weather in Colorado after probably our most difficult moments as a couple the night before, but look who showed up to the event!) And better yet, consistently showing up and not abandoning myself.
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My most important life lesson over and over again! 😃