It’s the first October that came and went since I was diagnosed that I haven’t felt like celebrating my survival. We all know October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. It was now my 9th October since my diagnosis and in the previous years, I was pink and proud, sharing so much, especially if I could help others.
I’ve never had survivor's guilt, and I am not sure entirely how I am feeling right now, but I know it’s not celebratory. I also know the importance of early detection and doing what I can to get the word out there but for right now, as a new single, solo mom - the only parent since the loss of my boy's dad to cancer, it all feels like too much.
We are still on quite a journey.
So as I stand here, wishing I had more to say about Breast Cancer, for me, right now, it’s hard to celebrate, but I am proud to share another survivor’s success and all she’s doing to help so many. I know I am not alone in these ups and downs, it is all part of the journey. And hopefully even sharing this, will help one of you….