I am steady because I have practiced

Hello friend,

 

I hope you and others are holding your heart right now. I have an exciting update! I will be sending out weekly newsletters for the foreseeable future. Twice a month, my newsletters will include a practice. Just. For. You. Twice monthly, my newsletters will feature upcoming events and opportunities for you to practice with me in workshops, immersion, retreats, and more! I hope you enjoy hearing from me more. 

 

So much is moving through the physical, emotional, energetic, and spiritual realms. Over the past week, I’ve noticed how time seems to speed up because of the rapid pace at which civil rights, equity, and justice are being dismantled. I have been checking in with myself to see how my heart and spirit feel, and the answer has been consistent for several months now, steady. 

 

 

I keep waiting for the bottom to fall out. I wait for my spirit to split open in despair and disrepair. But I don’t think that is going to happen this time. The split isn’t coming. What’s more present than anything else is a calm, clear steadiness that is unwavering. 

 

It isn’t that I am not paying attention to what is unfolding here now. I am very much paying attention. My middle namesake, Cassandra, means I knew things would happen this way. I already knew what was to come. In some ways, being a Cassandra feels like a curse—a curse on top of a curse. Cursed with the gift of prophecy. Cursed by people not listening attentively enough. Burdened with knowledge about our fate. Knowledge I want to turn on its head and weave into a different spell, one that will not lead to our demise but instead will free us. I will continue to weave and cast spells until we get free.

 

As I’ve sat in curiosity, asking why I feel steady, here is what comes—practice. 

 

“Spiritual practice is the well we can revisit as we grieve and attempt to mend our hearts.” Finding Refuge: Heart Work For Healing Collective Grief

 

I am steady because I have practiced.

 

 

I have spoken to Spirit and my ancestors, offered libations, prayed, fought for justice, and reached up to the moral arc to help it bend in the right direction—toward justice. 

 

 

I have sat in and created ceremonies, cast spells, sang, and sat in silence to see what I could hear.

 

 

I have chanted to Kali, Durga, Shiva, and Ganesha, called on the Gods and Goddesses, and bowed at their feet. 

 

 

I have studied various philosophies that explain why we are here now and why we suffer. I have asked myself and others what else is possible. 

 

 

I have prepared myself as a channel and vessel to show up wholly as myself. 

 

 

I have cracked open into pieces on the floor and understood that part of my medicine is to pick up the pieces and seal the cracks. 

 

 

I have heard the ancestors whisper, you are strong. Do not waver. 

 

 

I have practiced, and I am steady. 

 

 

So now, I ask you, what are you practicing at this time? 

 

What does your practice look like?

 

What will steady you?

 

I offer this practice to help you find steadiness now and in the future.

 

These times call us to find steady ground in the rapidly changing world. 

 

May we find and feel it and create a steady path for others to follow. 

 

I love you.

I see you.

Seek strength from my steadiness.