…...because when everything falls apart, you fall inward. 

 

So an interesting thing happened on my way to the parking lot to get my steps in – I remembered something.

 

Decades ago—like literally three decades ago—I was part of a church that believed in purging folks who didn’t check the boxes of their interpretation of holiness. I was one of those people. Kicked out. Told I was no longer a “true Christian.”

 

And the irony? My whole life had been wrapped in that identity. My community. My calendar. My sense of self.

When they told me to leave, I spiraled. But in that void, something miraculous began.

 

I journaled. I sobbed. I played classical music (which now I recognize was my nervous system’s way of self-soothing—sound healing before I had the words for it). And most powerfully—I took the train to the beach and just sat with myself and Source. No plan. No performance. Just presence.

 

That time in my life birthed a new kind of devotion—not to rules or roles, but to resonance.

I started making choices from the inside out.

And let me tell you, when you move like that—anchored, aligned, and unapologetic—it’s magnetic. People feel it. Systems shake because of it. And your spirit? She breathes easier.

Eventually, I returned to the church on my terms. But by then, I wasn’t seeking validation. I was walking in sovereignty.

 

 

I share this (long, winding, soul-baring) story because maybe, like me, you’ve felt unmoored lately. Maybe the old anchors no longer hold. Maybe the tools that used to work are falling flat. Maybe you’re asking, “What’s wrong with me?”

Here’s what I want you to know:

Nothing is wrong with you. You are simply meeting a new layer of yourself.

You are shedding skins. You are stepping into spaces your past self couldn’t have fathomed. And yes, it’s disorienting. But it’s also divine.

 

 

Today I’m walking in a parking lot, audio journaling and probably looking like I’m talking to myself—but honestly? I kind of am. I’m speaking to the version of me who still wonders, “What’s next?” The one who forgets she’s come this far. The one who needs a reminder that the most sacred orientation in this world is our connection to Source/ The Divine / God.

 

Change will come. Uncertainty will visit. But who you are—that eternal, anchored essence—is always available to return to.

Because the voice you’re waiting for might just be your own.

 

Just saying…

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