I've been asking God questions. I've got decisions to make and don't have the answers. My head is trying to work it all out.
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In the tumult of my thoughts, I suddenly feel God say, ‘Ask me.’Â
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‘But I have been asking you!’ is my response. Then it dawns on me that maybe I am asking the wrong thing. I've been looking for answers, for what I should do, rather than asking God to speak what he wants to speak to me.
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So I come to God again, and say, ‘God, please speak to me. Please show me whatever you want to show me.’Â
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In that moment, I see a picture of a hill. And in the quiet of my thoughts, I know that…
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I am not in a valley. I am going up a hill. It's hard work. I don't know exactly what's at the top. But God is with me. I can enjoy the process even though it's difficult, because climbing a hill is fun when you have good company and are doing it together. I can enjoy God's presence, the things he shows me along the way, the amazing viewpoints. God tells me there is something oh so very beautiful at the top for me.Â
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This word from God has shifted my entire thinking and brought such peace. I still don't have the answers, I don't know what's at the top of the hill. But I can enjoy the process, exploring the different routes along the way. I can anticipate the beauty of what's coming. I can enjoy what God shows me. There's no rush.
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God, I'm sorry when I get caught up in thoughts of uncertainty, worry and confusion. Sorry for not trusting you. Help me trust you. Thank you for your presence with me and for the beauty you are leading me into.
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God shows me another picture, a huge jigsaw puzzle spread out over the ground. I see myself at ground level unable to see all the pieces of the puzzle. Then I see myself rising into the sky, soaring high like an eagle, seeing from God's perspective, able to look down onto the earth and see the whole picture.Â
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My job is not to try and work out the puzzle! My job is to press into Jesus. As I trust, he will make me ‘soar on wings like eagles’ (Isaiah 40:31). As I fly with him, I will see as he sees; he will bring clarity.
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Wow! A word from God changes everything!