(New York, NY) After more than a decade away from music, acclaimed singer-songwriter, Jennie Arnau, is poised to make her return with a collection of songs about loss, resilience, and re-discovery. Blending grassroots rock, alt-country, and poetic Americana shaped by her Southern roots and New York edge, Arnau was a fixture on festival stages and at renowned venues surrounding her last release, 2009’s Chasing Giants. Faced with her mother’s dementia diagnosis, Arnau made the difficult decision to step away from music to care for her mother, and then to care for herself after her mother’s death.
“It took me years to navigate my way out of the sorrow and to stop reaching for the phone to share some silly little moment I knew she would relate to - years to stop whispering her name when I was scared, years to learn how to say goodbye,” Arnau shares. “But during that time, I wrote and wrote and sang and sang until I realized it was coming from a different place. I felt a closeness and fragility I hadn’t felt before, yet light and strong at the same time. I now always hear my mother telling me to be more independent, thoughtful, and kind in my everyday interactions and to stop hiding and worrying, and I feel as if it’s more important than ever to listen to her.”
The first release of the songs born during Arnau’s time out of the spotlight, “Back To Carolina,” reflects her internal struggle of deciding what to do - as well as how and where to do it - as her mother grew ill.
“When you find yourself so far from someone you love and they are dying, you want to be with them- you want to watch over them even though you know that watching over them can’t and won’t help them,” Arnau says. “I’ve lived in New York City for years and years, ever since college, and I love it here, but when my mother started to decline, I was trying to figure it all out. South Carolina has always been my hometown; it’s in my bones and woven into who I am, and my mother is the fabric of my life, literally my lifeblood, so I was struggling to decide what to do. I didn’t want to leave my world up here, but I just worried constantly about her.”
With the support of loved ones, especially her girlfriend (now wife), Arnau made the decision to stay in NY, and fly back and forth to be with her mother as much as possible. She continued to write to process her anger and impenetrable sadness, and eventually, at the urging of friends and collaborators, she found herself ready to head back into the studio.
“I didn’t know if I wanted to release the songs or not, and I honestly didn’t care. I just really wanted to play music with my friends,” she recalls.
“This time, I took my mother’s lessons and wrote for myself. I let go of expectations. I leaned into the grief, into the joy, into the uncertainty, and A Rising Tide is what came out. It’s me as a different person – the one on the other side.”