The Waiting Room Chronicles 📰
bridging the gap between dreaming + doing
Lingering in limbo, waiting on certainty? Dreams don’t arrive by waiting — they're built by doing. Learn here how to follow through — even when doubt is dragging you down.
 
TRYING being perfect
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Kristina Varaksina
Reading Time: 2 min, 21 sec
As frequent patrons of the waiting room, we can often mistake imperfection as incompatibility.
 
The moment something doesn’t work out exactly as we imagined — when we get too distracted by social media to follow through on our plans, when it takes way longer than originally thought, when it just doesn’t perform, + when that one thing doesn’t feel like an immediate confirmation — we start asking the wrong question:
 
“Is this a sign I should quit?”
 
N O P E. It’s not.
 
It’s a sign you’re learning. Even the most 👁️ soul-aligned, 💫 destined-in-the-sky, 🎴 foretold-through-my-tarot-deck pursuits require you to stumble. Not because you're broken or not meant for it — but because you’re new to it.
 
And new things are tender, shaky, + imperfect by design.
 
 
🗨️ “Yeah, but like, I’ve been in this industry for 8+ years. I’ve done this before. Maybe it’s not working out for me this time because this isn’t right for me.”
 
Okay, well — is the strategy new? Are you targeting a new client base? Are you trying to move forward on a new idea for a content series? Did you go through an agonizing heartbreak + you’re still catching your breath + maybe even dating new people + trying to pick back up the pieces now that you are forever changed?
 
Bestie. Give. yourself. a. b r e a k.
 
 
🗨️ “But all I’ve been doing is giving myself a break! That’s why I’m in the waiting room.
 
Okay, sure — except, different steps / stages / situations require different forms of compassion. Being kind to yourself isn’t what’s holding you back.
 
As over-ambitious gxrlies, we have these skewed ideas on what it requires to be successful. The world we live in demands us to grind our way through, is shaped by toxic masculinity, + tells us we’re finally successful when our manifestations arrive instantaneously. The odds are against us — not for us. We’re having to find our way in an ecosystem that still isn’t fair to us.
 
Self-discipline can be the trick that snaps everything into place, but it is only kind when you’ve set yourself up with realistic expectations + outcomes. Which requires a deep understanding of who you are + loving yourself for all the ways in which you are unique.
 
Also, life just happens sometimes. And in order to catch up, spending time resting in the waiting room (aka, getting to know yourself) can be the kindest thing you can do for yourself. It may feel like life isn’t moving forward + you’re wasting your potential by staying still — but is the act of healing really something that’s so frustrating to you, or were you taught to regulate through impatience?
 
Remember, no matter where you are right now or how long you’ve been in that waiting room, you. are. right. on. time.
 
 
🗨️ “I’m just so sick of not meeting up to my potential. All I do is dream big to only disappoint myself. When will this cycle end?
 
It ends when you stop trying to leap your way over — when you stop trying to skip living your way through — when you stop punishing yourself for being human.
When you stop treating the waiting room as a time-out corner + use it as the nourishing respite it was built to be.
 
When you learn the difference between the pain of harm + the discomfort of change. And you choose to keep going anyway.
 
Because there’s pain in always searching for greener pastures — constantly chasing a version of your life that looks easier, more pinterest-able, more instantly right.
 
So, what you’re experiencing now? This isn’t failure. This is the work of becoming. The work of following through. The work of trying again. And again.
 
You’re not lost — Instead, you’re in the part of the story where you keep going.
 
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Shadows x reflections
 
Fear of Change When Change is What You Want
 
Your nervous system is working it’s hardest to keep you safe. But you have to ask yourself which is the safest: staying where you are or stepping into the person you’re ravenous to become?
 
I can’t know for sure, but I believe what’s happening is your mind + your body are at odds with each other. Your mind is the part of you that sees the big picture — that sees the magic within the future you’re building — while your body is the part that’s scared to move forward.
 
Your body is what is begging you to not take that step: the endless scrolling on social media → urgently solving problems that have nothing to do with your goals → trouble sleeping + feeling too tired to get out of bed → obsessively fantasizing about what you want so you feel too overwhelmed to take action.
 
example — Creating an entire podcast studio before outlining your first episode.
 
Once you’ve procrastinated long enough, it starts to adapt, adjust, + disguise itself in everyday life, sitting with you in unrecognizable shapes. Procrastination becomes the go-to tool your body uses to keep you safe / distracted / frozen. Because, again, your nervous system doesn’t understand that growing pains are the right of passage + not inevitable doom.
 
So, your body looks for any sign possible to show your mind that you’re on the wrong path. It looks for an opportunity to jump in + self-sabotage in such a subtle way you don’t even notice it.
 
Fear doesn’t mean stop — it means you’re entering new territory. Your body is protecting you from a life it hasn’t learned to trust yet.
 
Show it this change is safe. Then take the next step.
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reset
i challenge you
When the urge to reach for your phone, start a chore, or grab a snack hits mid-task, try this instead:
 
Sit in silence for just three to five minutes.
 
Meditation is a go-to for a reason. If stillness feels hard, that’s usually a sign it’s needed.
 
Your nervous system is wired to seek escape when things get tense or imperfect. But progress isn’t supposed to be perfect — it’s supposed to be real. And sitting still, even briefly, reminds your body that it’s safe to be here. Safe to keep going. Safe to do this imperfectly.
 
So next time distraction calls, try pausing first.
 
Just for a moment.
 
Just to see what happens.
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LIMINAL LESSONS
What to Do When You’re the Only One Who Knows You’re “Behind
 
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Anyone notice that this is being sent out a week late? 👀
 
Hmm, interesting. I think I hear crickets.
 
Yeah, that tracks. Because this newsletter — this project — is so new, as the creator I’m the only one who’s going to be monitoring successful pacing + follow-through. Unless you — the reader — have built a Sunday ritual or routine of which this newsletter is a part of, you will be more likely than not to never notice that this newsletter didn’t arrive on one particular week.
 
Although I am absolutely striving to release this consistently, writing + creating a newsletter at this scale is new to me. I dare say, this will not be the last time I miss a Sunday release. I hope not, but I am comfortable with doing this imperfectly. I am comfortable arriving late. I am comfortable with stumbling along the way.
 
What I am not comfortable with is giving up.
 
And I have worked with many clients who would, at this point, with their creative + business endeavors, give up. Or worse, apologize for being human. This looks like:
 
“I’m sorry I haven’t post anything for three months! I’ll release something soon. I promise! Life has been really tough lately. Again, I’m so sorry. Thank you for your patience! I’ve missed you guys.”
 
One of the problems with this is that when you apologize, there then becomes the need to make amends. And in order to do that, you might feel like you have to go bigger, better, brighter with jaw-dropping, “omg, that was worth waiting three months for” content.
 
I want you to know that no one is asking that of you, except you.
 
Just as whatever endeavor you may be stumbling through, no one is asking you to develop that except for you.
 
You, you, you, you, y o u.
 
And when you apologize for being human, you’re not actually apologizing to the world, but to yourself.
 
What stopped me last week from releasing this edition was a simple mismanagement of commitments. My window for working on this is Sunday. The previous Sunday, I had multiple projects to make progress on that would greatly benefit my trajectory. I consider this newsletter one of those things. But when it came time to write (time blocking), I still hadn’t finished [project b] + I had a choice to make. Do I keep going or do I write?
 
Well, I think we know what I chose. And I don’t regret it. I knew future me would thank me for it, + I will continue to do so. And, and I’m still committed to this newsletter. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for longer than I know. Now that I’ve taken the leap forward, there’s no way I’m stopping now. Even if all I do is stumble my way through.
 
When something is new, you’re learning how to implement. You’re learning how to chose that thing amongst all the other things in your life. That takes time.
 
Thank goodness we’re already right on time.
 
So, don’t punish yourself for being human. I certainly won’t.
 
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a message from kairos
 
 Opportunity, Synchronicity + Mythic Timing – “There is no rush. You do not have to race. This path will still unfold for you when you are ready.”
 
There is no point system for becoming.
No true deadline for the work that matters most.
And no one is keeping score but you.
Sometimes, the most aligned timing won’t look ideal on a schedule.
But your future self knows when it’s right.
You didn’t miss anything.
You’re not behind.
You’re simply building something worth waiting for.
Keep going — your pace is still progress.
 
 
P.S. If you're sincerely interested in meditating, I've got a great one that walks you through what it means to be present. Someone I love dearly sent this to me when I was just getting started. The deep sense of relief I experienced through this – I cried. It was cathartic. I felt so free. And it was done in no time at all.
 
 
If you end up doing it, reply back + let me know how it went? I genuinely would welcome + be happy for the report. ❤️
 
✽  REMEMBER  
 
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Anxiety is loud, urgent, spiraling, desperate.
 
Intuition is calm, ground, safe, nurturing.
 
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