I find myself asking what happens inside a person that they seem ok with the cruelty going on in our country? How do you find peace when you are ok disrupting another persons peace? 

 

When you look in the mirror what do you see? Do you like who you see or does your reflection make you feel empty inside, maybe even a little scared by what you see or don't see.

 

Self-reflection is important to me and something I practice every night before bed. I literally do an inventory of my day. What were my successes, failures, did I cause harm to anyone today including myself? What are the things I need to improve on tomorrow and what amends need to be made? 

 

You see years ago I would not have considered myself a good person, in fact I would have considered myself a bully. I did not care who I harmed or how and I was good at tearing people down. I had so much anger inside of me and the only time I felt pleasure was when I was making someone else cry. I did not like myself back then, but I did not know how to change and I wasn't sure I wanted to. 

 

You see because of my background of a survivor of abuse I developed the mentality of “I am going to hurt you before you have a chance to hurt me.” It wasn't until I began to really work on myself and change my life that I started to see things for what they were.

 

I hurt a lot of people in my past and I have since made amends to anyone I could. I did not like my reflection in the mirror and the emptiness in my eyes scared me. My life literally ended and started anew when I turned 50. For that was when I said enough. That was when I became accountable for my actions, beliefs and words.

 

Since that time I have worked hard to be a better person. A person who does not judge someone else's life even if I did not agree with them. I worked on forgiving myself for past mistakes and forgiving those who harmed me in the past.

 

So, my question to you this week is what would your daily inventory look like? Would you look back on your day and see that you were kind, compassionate and patient with anyone you interacted with? Or would you see that you caused someone harm in some way and need to make amends? Do you look at your actions and truly care about how you are or do you feel the harm you caused is someone else's issue?

 

What is in your heart? How are you reacting to the world and people around you? Do you hide behind your church? Or do you speak up against the injustices many churches are preaching today? Do you speak up against bullying of any kind?

 

What inside of you is making it ok to not show kindness? What inside of you is making it ok to remain silent when you see someone else being hurt? Do you tell yourself it's not your problem because it is not personally affecting you? Do you speak up and show support for our LGBTQ neighbors and friends and women who are fighting for their rights and lives? Do you speak up for that homeless person who is being harassed by the some of the community members? 

 

What does your inventory look like?

 

May we all continue to strive to be compassionate, loving and patient people. May we show the world how humanity is supposed to be. We have the power to change the world, but it has to start with your heart and soul. Time for some self-reflection and discovering your authentic self!

 

 

 

If you have additional questions about Spiritual Counseling/Guidance and if it is for you, please feel free to contact me via e-mail at spiritualpathwaysnh@gmail.com.

 

Namaste,

 

Pat Laurino

Intuitive Energy Healer/Spiritual Psychic/Medium

 

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